Friends that last a life time

High School was one of those times for me where I was friends with many different types of people. I had friends in lower grades, friends in higher grades, friends with the jocks, I was a cheerleader (for one season), friends with some of the geeks, and most of all friends with the bad ass kids. I loved High School I just didn't love the work that came with it.

I loved being able to see everyone and basically grow up with so many people through out the years of school. I still have this one friend who we were in the same classes all through out Elementary school, middle school, and some high school classes. The one class we had the most of was gym class with Mr. Taylor, he would constantly mix Stacey and I up every day and every year. Those were the good old days.


So back to friendships

I have friends whom I am still friends with today even after graduating in 2000 (yup do the math). I have so many friends that I keep in contact with through Facebook or text. There are quite a few friends that I still visit as much as I can. See I cherish friendship and they are the ones that I am forced to depend on when i am faced with tough times. I mean I even moved from NY to CT with my best friend, well he moved here first then I moved here. I have made many new friends while living here.

But the best is the couple that I have been friends with since high school and was there to witness him confessing his love for her for the first time. I was even suspended from school for fighting with this girl because she said I was not a good friend to Liz. However this chic deserved what was coming anyways because she was the girl who thought he shit don't stink and I was the type (still am) that would knock you off your pedestal. They have been together ever since and I had the pleasure to witness them getting married. There are the types of friends who planned their wedding around our vacation to Florida last year. That's true friendship. We lost touch for quite a while when I moved to CT but we are back in touch and I will keep it that way. They just had their 3rd child and I had the privilege to get the message about it along with waking up to a photo of the precious little man. She is such an awesome person that she will send me photos of the kiddos which means the world to me that she thinks of me. It means the world to me that they are going to attempt to make it to my wedding. She would be the one to travel the farthest away with 3 children just to attend and I am beyond grateful. Now that’s a best friend.

I have quite a few best friends all of which I make sure to see as often as I can. They are the ones who love me regardless of how foolish I act in public, how opinionated I am, and know that no matter what I am always truthful with them especially when they are stuck in life. That's a true friend.

Things are spectacular!!

I really mean it. 

We did have a little bump with Logan and a change in his med however he is doing much better and I think with his father calling him daily is helping with his mood. He loves his dad and for some reason he was believing that his father didn't care about him, having memories with him in the past, and is struggling with spending more time during the week days. I have explained to him that the summer will be different and he will be able to go every other week to his dads and that seems to make him feel better. So with his dad calling daily, his body adjusting, and reassuring him that everyone loves and cares about him is helping him through this bump all is turning out well with that.

Now about the wedding :)


Things are coming together as we have planned. We met with the DJ yesterday and we are pumped and believe we made the right choice. Pretty much everything is done except that I need to make the invitations but I still have some time yet for that. I am totally excited to finally be getting married! I never thought that I would be getting married. I never wanted to get married just because I seen my mother and my sister go through it and I just didn't want that. I thought I knew what love was, I spent 5 years with Lexi's dad and 4 1/2 years with Logan's dad and I really thought I loved them until I realized how unhealthy our relationships were. When I met Jeremiah I didn't want another relationship, I mean come on 2 failed relationships with baby daddies and now I then I was a single mom of 2 children obviously I wasn’t meant for successful relationships. But here we are 6 years later and still together and going to be getting married in less than 6 months!

I have found the ONE!!

I know that he is the one for me and the one I plan to be with for the rest of our lives. I love being with him, yes there are times where I beg him to leave so that I don't kill him lol. Of coarse our relationship isn't all rainbows and butterflies, our relationship is different from many others but we know how to work out our differences and fix them. I am a female and females are hard to live with we complicate everything, over analyze everything, and complain about everything. If you say you don't then that a foolish lie. I know I am not easy to live with but the two of us together is an amazing experience.

Seriously he is my everything
I never believed in sole mates until I met Jeremiah. He is quite the opposite of me in many ways. He calms me down when I am stressed out, he is there for me when I am sad, and the best of all he is there to make fun of me when I fall. It can't get any better than that. I couldn't live without him.

Co-Parenting is one of the hardest things to do

It isn't easy for anyone to have split parenting. 

It is 2x more difficult for a child to have to live between 2 households. Different rules, differently locations, different parenting styles, and when parent's don't get along they are left to suffer.
It isn't easy for anyone especially when the parent's don't get along but one thing I know is when a child is in need both parents are able to put all differences aside and make decisions that are in the best interest of the child. 
That seems to be what is happening now. It has been a long time since both of my kids’ dads and I have been in a relationship and it has been a roller coaster but it hasn't always been bad. Is it odd that I have only wanted to be friends with their fathers? I mean I became friends with them before we dated. Some people call me naive for wanting such things. However the goal is never unattainable.

There are many occasions that their fathers and I get along for the sake of the children and because it is easier to just get along than to fight about so many silly things. 
Don't get me wrong most of the time that we fight is because we believe that what we want for our child is the best decision for the child and no matter what the other says they are always right and this is where we butt heads every time. I just thought about it and I should be grateful that their fathers are very involved in their lives and I should be grateful that they want a relationship with our children, as many other children don't have that ability. I am grateful that they have their fathers, as I never knew mine. Now I am able to speak to him and know who he is but still haven't met him yet but that day is soon to come.


Today Logan's step-mom and I have been communicating more to relay what is going on with him and this med change. She has the experience with these med changes and has seen what her children have gone through. As we were talking she helped me to realize that her and Jeremiah have it rough, as they are the other co-parent who have the short end of the stick and have to endure the other end of the arguments. I can say that even though we don't see eye to eye I am glad that Logan's step-mom is in his life because she could have been the cruel ones who don't like their step-children. 


Both of my kid's dads lucked out with their wives. Lexi's step-mom is amazing as well.  She loves her as if she were her own. Which is very noble of her. In the end I know that we are all doing what is best for Logan and Lexi and both of my children are on the right track.

Well ta-ta for now off to finish getting the kids to bed.

~Peace Out~

Its the end of a new beginning

Well yesterday was the end my undergrad degree. (Insert fist pump, and wahooooo)

Of coarse I have to wait until May to graduate but I am officially done. I knew the time was coming but it is sort of odd when school was my main priority. It is sort of weird for me to not have to worry about getting my homework done by Wednesday of every week, having to pick my research topic, writing that research paper, and all the hours spent doing homework. Now I am not sure what to do with myself.

I tried to get back into reading books more so I read Neferet's Curse, Gone Girl and the Silver lining playbook. Now I don't know what to read next. I like to read so I spend all my spare time reading rather than watching television. Logan has been all about reading as well, he purchased The Lost Hero's book and he has been choosing the book over video games, which is an odd thing since the kid lives for video games.

I usually prefer books about fantasy. You know the vampire love stories. Yes get your chuckle in lol. I did read the 50 Shades of Gray, read it 3 times. I have never reread any book but I had nothing else to read and didn't find anything and I did enjoy the series. So now I am back on the prowl to find a new book or series to read.

So now that school is done I have more time to do things with the kids. For a while I struggled with spending so much time on school and not being able to spend all my time with my family however I am a good mom and I explained to my children when I started school that I was going to have to spend a lot of time getting my homework done every week and when I was done I would be able to spend time with them. Logan always asked "Why are you going to school when your 30?" Like the many times before I have explained to him that I need to have a career since I didn't make the smart choice to do so when I was younger. I can't say that I don't like where I stand now in life but I am not where I want to be but my 5 year plan is on track.

I am very proud of myself for the goals that I have accomplished and very happy of the decisions that I have made along the way. I am the type of person who has no regrets in life and believes that everything happens for a reason.

With that said...Have a fantabulous day!!!

~Peace Out~

Well the time is almost near......

This is a bitter sweat feeling......
I am done with school a week ahead of schedule. All I have to do is turn in my paper and that's all folks lol.
I have been plugging away at my BS in CJ for 18 months. No Summer vacation just school. Now what do I do?
I am not sure what it is like to not have to worry about getting all of my school work done for the week.
I love being in school as funny as it sound but when I am not doing school work I feel like I am getting dumber by the minute.
I would always start the semester ahead of schedule, always had my homework done by Wednesday's, and wait until the last minute to bang out ridiculous amount of pages for papers. That was my specialty. Last semester I finished a 22 page paper in 2 days and yes I got a good grade on it.
So what's next?????
Well I am going to take a break from school and then get ready to work on my Masters in Drug and Alcohol Counseling. I want to be a Probation officer and by golly that is what I will do.

So now I guess I have more time to read actually books again rather than school books and playing Candy Crush (which I loth) in my spare time.

Well now off to spend some QT time with my hubby :)

Happy Valentines Day & Happy Anniversary to me and my future hubby

I Love Love Love Valentines Day! 


Call me cliché, sappy, a mush, or whatever you have it but I am a sucker for Love! However today also marks another special day for me as it is Jeremiah’s and mine 6th year anniversary!!!!

It has been amazing to be with someone this long and not be married yet. But that day will come soon enough. I never wanted to get married, I mean I have had 2 children and never married their fathers.

This is something different. We have a connection that is unexplainable. Besides my children he makes me laugh everyday and is there for me when I am sad, he is there to pick me up when I have fallen and hurt myself for the umpteenth million time and we are able to laugh about me hurting myself constantly.

Now I am not saying our relationship is perfect (well I am lol) it is far from perfect as our relationship has its roller coaster ride however we balance each other out. When I am stressed out he is there to calm me down, and when he is stressed out I am there to make fun of him lol.

In all seriousness I can say that I am truly happy and it is because of him. My kids make me happy however they will leave at some point. I can't wait for the day that I marry my best friend and one and only true love. You know you have found your one and only true love and it took me a very long time to find mine but I wouldn't give him up for anything.

Zumba Zumba Zumba

I know I am sounding annoying when I talk all this nonsense about Zumba but let me just tell you how much I am digging it!

Totally digging it!!

I tried a class once but I felt like a total fish out of water and looked like a fool. So I stuck to what I knew..Insanity. I have talked about it before and it is a magnificent program that does work if you stick with it and it had worked for me. I watched it tone up my spare tire (my extra luv handles). I was losing weight until I decided that I would rather have the extra helping at dinner or the Elmer Fudge cookies were much better for me than carrots. Seemed logical right...Yeah don't we all wish. Shoot I can't even think of candy anymore without gaining 5 pounds on my ass.

So as I was finishing my 3 round of Insanity I caught an infomercial and seen this Zumba Exhilarate DVD set. So I said what the heck I'll give it a shot...Am I ever glad I did!!! I sweat more doing Zumba than Insanity and I have way more fun doing Zumba than Insanity. Insanity made me push myself to the max which made me feel powerful and then when it was nice out after the workout I would go for a mile run just to give myself that extra bit.

With Zumba it is making me feel happy, sexy, and it is fun. I am sure if someone was watching I sure wouldn't look sexy lol. I love to dance and shake my ass! Yes I may be white girl but I can shake it bahaha. This girl knows how to have a good time and still be classy.

I am so stoked to have 1 month left of school and I will be done! Yeah Buddy!! :)
I have worked my ass off for this and hopefully I will apply this degree as my last degree I didn't apply it to the work force.

Every day that passes seems like it is passing quicker than the last. Not sure what the deal is with that except that I am excited for spring. I am a little depressed that I didn't go boarding once this season but I can't stand barding on just man made snow without a nice base of real snow. See here is the thing I have mastered the art of falling....a..lot.. so I need the ground to be forgiving and with just a 2" base isn't going to protect my previously broken and bruised tailbone. So here is to Spring and Summer to warm my skin and make me smile.

There is one thing that is totally amazing to witness every morning (that isn't raining).... is the sun rise. My work has such a beautiful view of the sun rise.

Isn't it amazing?? It doesn't do it justice as the colors are so radiant.