Sunday, January 27, 2013

Life is a blur

I don't want to say that life seems to be turning into Groundhogs day but it seems that life is just passing by so quickly. Each Sunday I find myself saying, "Wow the weekend is gone already?"

I have also found that my life seems to be a routine, get up, eat breakfast, go to work, come home, workout, make dinner, shower go to bed, and wake up do it all over again.

I have also found myself stressing out a bit more lately and I am not sure if that is just because this year is filled with all sorts of stuff that is going to be happening, it seems this is the year that many of my friends and family are having babies, weddings, and graduations (including my own).

Sometimes I feel like a robot that just keeps going and going, oh and don't get me started on how I do laundry every day and yet I still can't get a head of it.

So today Jeremiah and myself spent the day cleaning together...SHOCKER!! that has never happened but today he cleaned the wooden blinds, he did the laundry, and ran the dishwasher, while I cleaned the rest of the house. It felt good to have help cleaning the house, which usually takes me all day doing by myself.

One thing that I am glad I didn't do this year was buy a season pass to go boarding like we did last year. We have had hardly any snow this winter and last winter. It is almost February and most of my yard is green. But living in New England they have a saying "If you don't like the weather wait 5 minutes it will change." Isn't that for sure since the highs have only been in the 20's by Wednesday it is suppose to be 50! Wait!!...What the What?!?!

I don't mind all this weather change as long as I have a nice hot summer. I hate the cold.. This coming from someone who spent 20 years living in Northern New York, but I very much dislike the cold. I don't like having to wear so many layers that i feel confined in my own clothing. I love the hot and humid summers where you just sit and don't have to move and your already sweating. Oh and we don't have nor use A/C. Yup you heard right. Can't stand the smell of it nor the noise that it makes.

So here's to a new work week hopefully uneventful...

~Peace Out~

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Forgot about blogging

Life has been wonderful lately. School is going well and so is work since dropping the 3rd job. Not sure how or why I thought I could pull all of it off but I did for 4 months. I have a lot to look forward to at the current time, my 6th year anniversary, my only daughter is turning 12, and graduating. I have decided that once I get into probation/parole I will return to school for my masters. I hope that my plans all fall into place when I need it too. I have learned though to plan for the worst instead of stressing out for the worst. This weekend has been jam packed with lots of family time which has been fun because I decided to have none of the kids friends over for once, even though Lexi left to go to a friends house last night, it was still fun for us. This weather has been out of control this year and I am glad that I didn't make the mistake of buying another snowboarding pass. We made that mistake last year and had a crapy season, so it seems that this year is nothing different. I really enjoyed the first year boarding lots of powder! I like boarding on powder then the artificial snow, and I do not like boarding the corduroy because my board slips right from under me when I use my heal edge.
I would love to hit the slopes this year just once but with the weather the way it is that may not happen.
Well goodnight all

~Peace Out~

Thursday, January 10, 2013

So far good

Things have been good with school so far but I am assuming that things will change with that since it is my last class but since it is my only class I should have plenty of time getting every thing done.
Now with the rest of my life has been a little stressful, I did drop one job so I would have one less thing to stress me out.
So I have become addicted to Pinterest!! :P
I have had am account for a while but I have been all l about finding great food recipes and other wonderful treats. Now don't let me fool you, I can't cook anything that doesn't come from a box lol. I took culinary arts in high school and taught cooking class at my last job however I am not good at making anything from scratch. I choose recipes that seem idiot proof.

Well that's all I've got for now as I am chillaxing for the evening with my kiddos.

~Peace Out~

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Wonderful start to the new year

Well this weekend has ben the best one of the year! We had a wonderful weekend with the kids. Logan was a little sad that his friend didn't get to spend the night but since it is the beginning of the year he has plenty of time to have friends over.
So tomorrow begins my last and final class!
I am beyond happy for it to be done and over. It has been a lot of hard work. I aimed for a 3.5 and I had a 3.67 was accepted into the Alpha Phi Sigma National Criminal Justice Honor Society. Of coarse now my GPA dropped thanks to Statistics so i now have a 3.47. I plan to end this last class with a 3.5 GPA.

So I probably wont be around for a bit as I need to put all of my time and effort into school so that I can finish with an A.

So I need to focus on school and working out. I finished week 4 in Insanity. This next week is going to be similar to doing yoga as it focuses a lot on your core. So far this week alone I have lost 3 lbs. It sounds wonderful doesn't it? Except for the past few weeks I have been yo-yoing between loosing and gaining because I can't seem to control my eating week to week. I do good one week then sabotage it the following week. I don't know why I don't it I know that eating 4 cookies, candy, and ice cream is not good for my diet but I don't seem to have any self control. Then I hate myself after I have ruined my diet for the week. I know some people have to indulge once a week but not every day like I did the week before. I have learned that event though I am eating a fruit mid-morning it still has calories and extra sugar but in my mind it is fruit and that makes it healthy.
I think that when I have things to focus on that I eat better. It is when I have nothing to do that is when I excessively eat. But again I am on a mission to loose weight so I look good at graduation.

So here is too the new year and finishing school!!! I hope to try and get on here as much as possible.

~Peace Out~

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Loving Life

I am really looking forward to what is in store for this year.
I start my last class of school on Monday and I am looking forward to finishing that class in 2 months. Which means I make May graduation!!
You have no idea on how happy I am! Okay well many would know how I feel. It is a huge accomplishment for me to finish with my Bachelors and actually have a degree in something that I will actually be able to use this time.
I already have my AS in Internet and Web Master Design but I did nothing with the degree. One thing that many don't realize is that I hated high school and said I would never go to college. Then I decided since I lived in a military town then I should join so I wanted to go into the Navy and before I could completely sign into the military I found out I was pregnant with my daughter so that plan was thrown out. Still school and a career was in the back of my mind. Then moved to CT and my life took a drastic turn and I picked myself back up. Then met my son's father that after I had my son I decided it was time to grow up and figure out what I am going to do with my life. So my mother convinced me to get into computers since it will always be in demand, so I do and just before I am due to graduate most of the industry is now outsourced over seas. So it seemed that wasn't the field for me anyways. So I decided to take some time off from school and see where my life takes me but that still wasn't satisfying. So I decided I wanted to get into the Criminal Justice field. So back to college I go and after a year I decided to stop and try to pursue becoming a police officer. That was.....invigorating.. intimidating... and a rude awakening into that field. What you see on television is not what really goes on. So after my time was up I had to go back to school so here I am and will be graduating! I have big plans for my life and I am leaving it into Faith's hands because when it is time it will all fall into place.

~Peace Out~

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

First day back to reality

I thought I was going to have a hard time adjusting back to the work life but I was able to get up this morning without any issue and my day flew by. I thought it was going to be a drag.
So now I have a problem...I decided to have some dip and chips. Now I have been good about sticking to my diet and decided to give in a little so I began to eat some of the dip and not realizing that in the side of the jar where it dips that there was mold. Yup I contemplated making myself throw up to get it out of my system. I don't like to throw up at all. I am afraid for what is in store for me through the night and tomorrow if it will effect me or not.

So here's to hoping that I have a very uneventful night and uneventful day tomorrow.

~Peace Out~

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

New Year..... New Beginnings 8-)

I have had the best vacation! This week off from school, work, and kids have rejuvenated my mind and body. I have had a wonderful time visiting with friends who I was able to visit. This New Years was awesome!! A great way to close another chapter in my life.

I am embracing 2013 with open arms and I can't wait to see what is in store. I feel like that this year will be amazing.

This New Years was spent hanging out with friends at two different places. First we went to our friends Dave & Amanda's I rocked the silly boys in beer pong then went to our friends Jamie & Joe and tried my hand at ping pong (didn't rock that) watched the ball drop and kissed the man of my dreams at the stroke of midnight. How could my life get any better than that? Simple..because it will only continue to get better as Faith will have it's way and show me how each year that passes my life continues to grow. I always reflect on my life especially New Years. It feels good to know how far I have come as a woman, mother, and a wife.

I owe it all to everyone in my life. Every person has had a hand in my growth. Even those who read my blog. It was a way for me to vent my days frustrations or just to blab about something that is on my mind but when I get responses it feels good to know that people are actually reading it.

So what is my New Years Resolution??
Well there wasn't one specific resolution but I have personally vowed to learn to talk to people instead of talking at them.

I vowed to have more conversations with my older sister. Before I moved to CT my sister and I were very close. You can't get any closer than being pregnant at the same time lol. I still remember the day she told me she was pregnant. Then came the fun part of telling our mom.

I am fully embracing Faith. There is a lot that is planned to happen this year and I have already been freaking out about the what if so instead of worrying I am going to plan ahead incase the what if happens. See that shows how much I have grown right there, normal people know that something is going to happen and they plan for it however I use to wait and see if it did happen but I am going to nip it in the ass now so if it doesn't pan out the way I plan then I have a back up plan. I am going to leave everything in Faith's hands as if it is meant to be then it will be.

My last thing is to know and fully understand that there are things that are out of my control. I can't change people all I can change is how I react to them. I know that is something that I should have realized a long time ago but I would let every little thing that people would do to me really bother me. Then I would wonder what did I ever do to deserve such treatment but then I look back and realize I didn't do anything it is just the way they are.

I really want to live in Peace and Happiness. I like being happy without drama in my life. Drama just sucks me into the darkness and I don't see the light of happiness for a long time until I pull myself out of the funk.

So Cheers to 2013 may everyone have a blissful year...I know I am going to!!!